Sunday, January 5, 2014

Coming out (for the second time)


The best way to set up this post is by lifting a quote; in this case, double-lifting: first from the author who penned it then next from the blogger who drew her blog title from it.

"Finally, I suspect that it is by entering that deep place inside us where our secrets are kept that we come perhaps closer than we do anywhere else to the One who, whether we realize it or not, is of all our secrets the most telling and the most precious we have to tell." Frederick Buechner via Telling Secrets telling-secrets.blogspot.com

I have been considering over the last several months, how to broach and discuss  a particular topic.  That topic is, depending on one’s viewpoint, distressing, alarming, terrible, a life preserve thrown out to those who need it, strengthening, enlightening, or interesting.  Or a whole other host of possibilities.

When I came out as gay, it was actually an easy process.  Nobody much minded, it was not a point of contention or concern in my family or among my closest friends.  It was a smooth process for me, thankfully.

But, I’ve been considering over the last several months what a grace I experienced then by coming out: it helped me and it helped others.  It gave a name and a face, it made me available for others when they came out, because they knew I had experienced it myself.

And, seeing all the good it did for me and for others, it leads me to believe that coming out, telling secrets about our lives can be both liberating and a means of grace for others.

With that in mind, I have a secret to tell; I have something else to come out.

My mother always told me that I’m special (I suppose everyone’s mother did), and she was right, though not in the way she likely meant it!  I certainly have a very special immune system.  My immune system is challenged to differentiate between healthy Jason cells and foreign invader cells.  Because of this, my immune system has a habit of attacking perfectly healthy cells in my body.  Like any time that your immune system is engaged, what follows is inflammation, fatigue, and the successful destruction of targeted cells.  However, the targeted cells in my case are healthy cells in my body, so there are problems.

There are millions of people who have autoimmune disorders, and those disorders sometimes come with other autoimmune disorder cousins.  I’ve never checked the medical literature, but I think that my disorder clumping is highly unusual.  For you see, even though they are all spring from my immune system attacking healthy cells, in my case, my immune system is very pro-active and attacks not just one type of healthy cell, like in a single autoimmune disorder, but earns extra credit by attacking all over the place.  That means that for over a decade I have been diagnosed with, living with, and undergoing treatment for a cluster of autoimmune disorders 



  • multiple sclerosis     (in some parts of my brain and spine, my nerves no longer function correctly)

  • psoriasis                 (there are a few painful spots on my skin, though almost entirely in places covered by clothing) 

  • psoriatic arthritis     (very similar to the better-known rheumatoid arthritis, so swelling in my hands, feet, spine and sternum)

  • pernicious anemia    (my body lacks the protein required to process B12 from food, so I need to inject it)

  • ocular migraines      (sometimes, I go blind for about 15-30 minutes, and have a slight headache)


That’s a lot of body systems!

So, a brief mention of why this has been a secret in the past: I cannot stand the pitying looks I experienced when I first shared this over a decade ago when my symptoms began. The last thing I wanted was to be treated like or even thought of an invalid.  So, after those initial reactions I experienced, I stopped telling people.  Most of the time, nobody can tell that I’m living with these diseases, and so I kept it that way.  Some of my close friends and family know, but not everyone.  It’s not the sort of thing I would bring up at a party, for example.

So, why am I outing myself now?

It has been evident to me for a while that others are living with chronic disease, and that the burden they bear is partially due to feeling as if others around them do not understand or appreciate what it’s like.  For some, diabetes forces them to change the way they eat; for some, chronic pain means that they need to modify their activities, for others, it is heart disease, depression, HIV/AIDS, asthma, Crohn’s disease, etc, etc.  If you think about it, there are few of us not affected by chronic disease: either in our own health or the health of our families.  This is also something that affects all age groups, races, genders, and sexualities.  It is equalizing.

So, I’m coming out in order to let everyone know that I live with chronic illness, and am happy.  I have had to make changes, yes.  The treatment is difficult and at times, very onerous.  But I have grown to be more stalwart and, ironically, more flexible.  I’ve learned to accept initial limitations, then excel beyond them.  I am no longer bothered by pitying looks because I do not pity myself.

I also am outing myself to let those struggling with chronic disease in their lives or the lives of their loved ones, that in me you have a compatriot, a friend, and an advocate.  Each week I offer healing prayers at St Paul’s Cathedral, and pray for those who come forward, that they may know the healing power of their God.  It is important for me to acknowledge my own need for strength and healing power, so that I might extend it to others.

And what are you supposed to do about it?  Well, sometimes this all makes people feel uncomfortable.  So, you don't have to do anything.  You don't have to comment or say anything when you see me.  Some of you may want to, and that's ok, too.  I'm not interested in you making a spectacle of it, but if you need to, I'll muddle through.  You can even look at me or think of me with pity; it's a pretty useless thing to do, since it bounces right off, but you may do what you need to.  You may want to talk, and that's great, or you may know someone who you think would like to talk: send them along.  I'm not telling everyone this in order to require any reaction from you.  I'm telling it because it is part of my integrity, and my desire to be available for others.

So, if any of you have secrets to tell to your loved ones, if any of you have vulnerabilities to share that you worry will lead to judgment or angst: now is the time to resolve to bring them into the light.  We often present ourselves behind masks of strength, power, flawlessness, and perfect ease.  We are not those things.  The more that we announce our weaknesses, the more that we (and others) will experience us as empowered, rather than vulnerable.



Feast of the Holy Name of OUr Lord Jesus Christ, January 1, 2014

Preached at St. Paul's Cathedral, for Holy Name 2014




In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit.


Probably many of you have seen the 2010 film, The Queen, starring Helen Mirren as Queen Elizabeth II. The movie opens with the recent election of Tony Blair as Prime Minister in 1997.  In an early scene, very soon after his election, Blair travels to Buckingham Palace, to meet with the Queen, and for the Queen to ask Mr Blair to form a government in her name.
The Queen’s deputy private secretary informs Her Majesty that Mr Blair will soon be arriving, and the secretary and the Queen share a brief exchange.  Her secretary tells the Queen:

I spoke to the Cabinet Secretary who said he was expecting the atmosphere at Downing Street to be very informal. Everyone on first name terms.
At the Prime Minister's insistence.

The Queen responds:

What?  As in ‘Call me Tony?’ and she then puckers her face in distaste.

Of course, that scene is supposed to introduce you to the personality variances between the new Prime Minister and Her Majesty, and it is pretty effective at doing so.  But, it also portrays a theme the film will explore: the interplays between intimacy and privacy.  And, this interplay is established by the way one uses one’s name.

Today’s commemoration is a bit of an odd duck in the liturgical calendar: we typically celebrate things in the calendar based on events or based on people.  For example, we have feast days commemorating Our Lord’s baptism, His Passion, His Resurrection, His Ascension, His Transfiguration, His birth.  Or, we celebrate the lives of the saints, or of the angels.  There are only a few times when we have a feast to celebrate an aspect of our faith or an attribute of Our Lord, rather than an event.  So, we have Christ the King, we have Holy Cross Day, we have Holy Name.

The Episcopal Church has kept today’s feast since its first prayer book in 1793, though under a different title.  The current title of the feast day, a change reflected first in the 1978 prayer book, is the Feast of the Holy Name of Our Lord Jesus Christ.  And, as many of you know, when the prayer book changes something, it’s a big deal.  We express our theology in the way we pray, but most especially in the way we pray in common.  Therefore, when the Book of Common Prayer changes, it’s a way of saying to us: pay attention.  Look at this.  There’s something shifting, or being revealed, or being examined in a new way here.

There’s something about Our Lord’s Name that we need to explore.

So, it should be straightforward, right: we have a feast for His name.  His name is Jesus.  Jesus is derived through first Greek then Latin corruption of the Hebrew name Yeshua.  It was a fairly common name, both in the time of Our Lord’s life, as well as in Old Testament times; it is cognate with the name Joshua, the name of a great Hebrew hero.  We have a window commemorating Joshua, in the back of the nave.  Joshua, Yeshua, Iesus, Jesu, Jesus: they mean Yahweh saves.  But, does it sound like we would get a feast day just for etymology?

The collect for today points to the importance of today’s celebration.  The collect begins: Eternal Father, you gave to your incarnate Son the holy name of Jesus to be the sign of salvation.

It ties together some important themes, especially themes in this season: gifts, incarnation, names, signs of salvation. 

Before Christ, God came to humanity through various means: evening walks in the garden, voices in dreams and burning bushes, the law, the prophets. Before Christ, God came through signs of salvation.

When Moses asked God his name, he answered: I Am who Am.  He answered: I exist.  God’s name was all of existence.

But, in the fullness of time, God in Christ, changed the story.  At Christmas, at what we celebrated last week, we heard the news of the Incarnation.  In Christ, God came to humanity in Himself.  In the Incarnation, the incomprehensible God became limited, accessible, subject to humanity.  In the Incarnation, the unutterable name of God as portrayed in the Old Testament, a name that was so vast that it encompassed all of existence, in the Incarnation, God changed His name.  He took a meaningful name, but a name that others shared.  In the Incarnation, God became mundane.

Probably most of us, when we worship here at the Cathedral or in other parishes, have experience using both Rite I and Rite II, both the modern and historical language that is used in the Book of Common Prayer.  And that’s likely how we think of the two forms n the prayer book: one uses the language of the first prayer books, uses Elizabethan language, and one uses modern English, and that is mostly true.

However, I’d like you to consider a small topic where the difference in language is not just about the historical period, not just Elizabethan or modern.  There is a subtle difference in the two Rites, a difference that is often overlooked.  And it centers on a few words we use when addressing God: Thee, Thou, Thy.

When the modern Rite II was translated, the language was updated, and words and phrases that are no longer in common parlance were brought up to code.  Thee became you.  So, for example, we still use Rite I language in the Our Father, and we say hallowed be thy name, thy kingdom come, thy will be done.  But in the rest of Rite II, we say things like: We give you thanks, O God, for the goodness and love which you have made known to us in creation.

In modern English, in Rite II, there is only one word, you, while in the Rite II language, there are two words: Thou and you.  Languages changes, words are added or contracted.  Now we only have one word to convey something, 450 years ago we had two words.

So, what is the distinction between Thou and you?

Thou is used to address God.  You is used to address the assembly of the people, or to address an individual.  For example, the Lord be with you is used for a group of people, and in distributing Communion to an individual in Rite I, the priest may use the words The Body of Our Lord Jesus Christ keep you in everlasting life.

 So, at first it sounds like Thou is used for God, and you is use for mortals.  It sounds like Thou is reserved for the Almighty, a word that has accreted some formality or solemnity.  A special word, a special name.

However, it is the exact opposite.  In Elizabethan language, you is the formal term, used for a group of people or for an individual in a formal setting.  In polite company, one would use the word you to address another person.  Thou is the informal presentation of the word you.  Thou is what is used only for those in close relationships or families, what is used for friends and familiars.  Thou is relationship; thou is intimate. 

The Holy Name of Jesus extends that intimacy, too.  Jesus is the intimate form of God; Jesus is the Thou.

We profess a saviour named Jesus, not a saviour named Mr. Christ.

We profess a name that allows access, a name that gives intimacy.  In Christ, the private life of God’s life is exposed.  In Christ, God says ‘Call me Tony’.

So, at today’s Feast of the Holy Name, the Church says: pay attention.  Look at this.  God is among us to show intimacy.  And, to show us the sign of salvation in intimacy, God in Christ comes among us as vulnerable.  In Christ, God says pay attention.  Look at this.

And there was risk to that intimacy; it led to the Passion.  But, God in Christ endured Passion and death, and intimacy did not end but was expanded, expanded through the Resurrection.  In Christ, God is saying: pay attention.  Look at this.  In intimacy, in relationship, I am made flesh and come among you.

And so, we become like unto Christ, when we are intimate and in relationship with others.  We become like unto Christ when we allow others into our lives, and when relationships bring grace and are signs of salvation to others; when we become another person’s Thou.  We become like unto Christ when we allow others to call us by our names, and when we meet them as those we are called to love, and when we share our name with others.

The Church does not celebrate today only the Holy Name of Our Lord Jesus Christ, we also celebrate our own holy names, we celebrate that in Christ, God has made our names, our intimacy, our relationships to be signs of our salvation.

Advent 4, 2013



Preached at St Paul's Cathedral, Buffalo, NY on Advent 4, 2013



In the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit.



After eight years of knowing one another and working together here, at St Paul’s Cathedral, it’s remarkable the small unimportant things I know about the Dean, and the silly things she knows about me.  For example, we know each other’s favorite Christmas carols, and will get excited on the other’s behalf when those carols come up during the Christmas season.  And, of course, knowing us, they are not the most common of carols.  They are somewhat theologically dense, by some definitions could be considered obscure, and certainly are not the kind that show up in Christmas concerts in public schools.  My favorite is Tomorrow shall be my dancing day, and it’s a carol attested as being based on lyrics from a 14th century passion play in Cornwall, and originally written in Cornish.  The Dean’s favorite is A Stable Lamp is Lighted, and was written in 1961 by the American poet and Pulitzer Prize Winner, Richard Wilbur.

So, for those of you for whom those carols are familiar, I’m sure that the music and words are running through your brains, and, like most Christmas carols, they will stick in your head for days.  You’re welcome: that’s my little late Advent gift to you.

But, as those two carols are running through your minds, you may notice a similarity between them.  Even though 400 years separate them and even though they were written in two different languages and on opposite sides of the Atlantic, they share a form: they are intended to be sung at Christmas, but only the first part of their texts is about the events at Christmas.  Most of the lyrics in both carols are about the rest of Christ’s life.  They include lyrics about Our Lord’s baptism, His temptation in the desert, his entry into Jerusalem, His betrayal by Judas and judging by Pilate, His Passion and Death on the Cross, His descent into Hell, His resurrection and His ascension.  These are not carols summed up with shepherds, stars, an ox and a smiling baby.

Those who experienced Christ throughout His life, in all of those events referenced in the carols, would have been keenly aware of the type of Messiah that had been promised them, and that the Messiah would establish the Kingdom of Israel, and that His Kingdom would never end.  If you recall from Fr Don’s sermon last week, that Kingdom was expected to be immediate, immanent, and eternal.  It was to be triumphant.  In fact, the proclamation of the Kingdom started long before Christ’s public ministry: The Archangel Gabriel told the Blessed Virgin that her child would take David’s throne and that His Kingdom would never end; the angels told the shepherds to go see the Messiah who had been born for them; the wise men from the east came seeking the King of the Jews.  The Kingdom would be ushered in by the child in Bethlehem.  And in His ministry, Christ often told those listening that the Kingdom was close, and alluded that the Kingdom was already around them.  After His death, many thought that the Kingdom would be established at His return.

So, when is the Kingdom to be established?  Has it been already?  Gabriel proclaimed Christ as King.  Christ preached the Kingdom.  So, is it here already?

There is a theological opinion that has had a major influence in faith communities in the early 20th century, including the Episcopal Church, that the Kingdom is both already here, and not yet here.  Christ already reigns as King, though his Kingship is still yet to come.  At first, it sounds impossible, and like a silly and meaningless theological argument.  But remember the carols.  Remember the value of pairing together things that are already unfolding, and things to be completed in the future.  At Christmas, we know that the Passion will be coming. At Christmas, the Kingdom is already and not yet.

When we start to acknowledge the Kingdom blossoming around us, we are given the grace to see the mystical flowering among the mundane.  When we accept that the Kingdom has already been inaugurated, and that heaven has been wed with earth, we open our souls to see how heaven comes among us.  Accepting that the Kingdom had been built in our midst is accepting that humanity and angels, the lost and the saints dwell in the same sphere.  As an example, the clergy of the Cathedral, like all Episcopal clergy, are charged with the solemn duty and privilege of praying the Office each day for themselves, for those under their care, and for the good of the whole Church.  Often, that means that each of us prays Morning Prayer, Evening Prayer, and Compline by ourselves.  And of course, it can be a bit weird in the office when the versicle comes up: the Lord be with you.  And you respond to yourself: And also with you.  And so, there is a tradition I was taught that, when praying the Office alone, you pray the versicle as normal: The Lord be with you, and you allow the angels who have joined you to pray to respond: and also with you.  The Kingdom is both already and yet to come.

There is a famous Episcopal parish, world-renowned for the richness of its liturgy, and the beauty of its pageantry and worship.  But, last year, when I visited, I was shocked: I expected the building to be a jewel box, with every surface gilded and carved and polychromed.  I expected a riot of color and light and embellishment.

What I discovered, though, was a nave with walls of white plaster, and a monochrome carved hammer and beam ceiling, with a muted tile floor.  The nave of the church was dimly lit, and, frankly, a bit austere.  This was supposed to be a cardinal parish of the Anglo Catholic tradition in the Episcopal Church?  Where was the beauty of holiness I had thought to encounter?  Had 150 years of incense stained everything beige???
But, then I saw the chancel, the part of the church where the altar was stationed.  It was gold, marble, an explosion of sumptuous hangings and with saints peeking out from niches, seven silver lamps hanging from the gold-vaulted ceiling, 6 foot tall candles blazing on the altar, flowers blossoming at the foot of the altar and steps.

For you see, at that parish they take seriously the belief that in the liturgy, the gates of heaven are thrown open, and angels and saints join us in worshipping the Lord who comes among us: who first came among us on Christmas, and who comes among us again in the Eucharist.  At that parish, walking down the nave to receive Christ in the Eucharist at the altar railing the chancel, you immediately recognize that you have entered Heaven itself, and that you are kneeling to meet your Lord in the Sacrament, that the Kingdom is already.

When we begin to see the Kingdom as all around us, our attitudes towards others will change: we truly know that all people are our neighbors.  We experience that our beloved dead are not gone but changed.  That our kindness or smallness, our generosity or selfishness is not an act that affects just us, but resounds through all creation, and is felt both by mortals and by angels.

Advent has prepared us, through longing and penitence, to open our hearts to hope, and to journey to the Christ child at his birth among us, to rejoice in the opening of the Kingdom that his birth announces.  Christmas is often a time that we more easily experience the Kingdom as already around us: we feel the joy of the season, we are moved to charity in thanksgiving for the blessings of our lives, we take especial care for those in need.  But we see it most clearly when we see a child at Christmas time.

TS Eliot, in his poem, The Cultivation of Christmas Trees, writes about how children more easily understand the mystical, more easily enter into the wonder of Christmas.  Eliot writes “of the child, for whom the candle is a star”.

A candle can also be a star, can be a harbinger of the newborn child.  Hidden under bread and wine, Christ can come among us again.  In Advent, we can compress thousands of years of expectation into four weeks.  In carols, we can both be comforted at the birth of the Christ child, lament his suffering, and rejoice through it all. Though appearing to be neighbors, or strangers, or the poor in need of help, many of us have, as St Paul wrote, “entertained angels unawares”.

As Advent folds soon into Christmas morning, I entreat you to look around for the Kingdom at work in the world that you experience.  Look around for your King and with joy, journey to Bethlehem to welcome Him again, as he begins again building a Kingdom around us: A Kingdom that is, like us, already and not yet.

Sermon cache 2012-2013

I have a number of sermons I need to post!  So, in one big post, here are my sermons from 2012 and up to the end of the 2013 liturgical year.  




In the Name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit.  Amen

For those of us who attend church regularly, we can at times fall into a pattern.  We begin to see our relationship to God as something that is tended to each week on Sunday morning, and, if were lucky, we even have some uplifting thoughts or a spare prayer or two during the week.  We participate on a few committees, we help out at church when someone needs a hand, were generally really, really successful at this Christianity thing, we think.
And this pattern can make us start to think that others who arent in the pews next to us each week, who arent sharing their wisdom in committees with us, who arent lending the church a hand are clearly slackers.  We know what Christianity looks like.  It looks like us, not like those who are not us.
Leo Tolstoy wrote of a legend from Russias Volga district involving a bishop who was traveling by sea on pilgrimage with a group of pilgrims.  As they passed a small island, the ships pilot told the bishop and pilgrims that on the island lived three hermits; the pilot had encountered them when he was lost in a storm, and found these men on the island.  They helped the pilot with food and water, and made sure to see him safely on his way.
The bishop, intrigued, asked more about these hermits, for he had never heard of them.  The pilot told the bishop that they were very simple men, almost never spoke, and lived in solitude for the salvation of their souls.  The pilot made it clear that the hermits were uneducated and, though kind, were not very impressive men. 
The bishop decided that he would take a boat from the ship and send the pilgrims on their way.  Though he wanted to continue on pilgrimage, the bishop would make a sacrifice and delay the pilgrimage and visit this small island, visit with the hermits, and instruct them in the way of Christian living, so that their meager lives could have more meaning.  After wrangling with the captain, the bishop was let down in a small rowboat from the ship, and he began rowing toward the small island.
The bishop met the hermits on the shore, told them that he had heard of them from the ships pilot, and that he had come to visit them to discharge his solemn duty to teach the faithful, and to instruct them in the proper way to pray.  They thanked him for his care and concern, and the bishop asked them: tell me, how do you pray?
'We pray in this way,' replied one of the hermits. 'Three are ye, three are we, have mercy upon us.'
The bishop replied that, though they clearly knew of the Holy Trinity, that wasnt the only, nor even the best way to pray.  There was so much more than just their little prayer!  He decided to start simply.  He walked the hermits through the words of the Our Father, explaining that those were the words of the prayer that Christ had taught his disciples to pray to their Father in heaven.
So he taught them: Our Father, who art in heaven.  The hermits repeated it, but stumbled on the words.  He spent hours before he was able to get the hermits to repeat that short phrase solidly!  He labored through the rest of the Our Father for the remainder of the day, until the hermits finally had memorized it.  As night fell, the bishop was relieved that the hermits now had learned the Our Father, though they clearly were simple men for it took an entire day for them to master this one simple prayer.  But now, at least, they would be praying correctly. 
By moonlight, he returned to his boat, and blessed the hermits as they knelt in the sand.  He began rowing out to the awaiting ship, thankful for the opportunity to teach small souls how to pray the right way, and happy to be returning to the ship and to make his way back to the pilgrims.  He faintly heard the hermits praying the Our Father as he rowed, and their voices faded into the distance as he rowed away from the island.
The bishop returned to the ship late that night, but couldnt fall sleep.  As he walked about the ship, he stopped at the stern, and looking overboard, saw something small approaching the ship, bright in the moonlight.  He assumed it was a small fishing boat, but as, it came closer, he gasped.  Walking across the waves were the three hermits!  They stopped at the ships side, and calling up to the bishop, exclaimed: Forgive us, holy servant of God, but we have forgotten the words of the prayer you taught us!  Please return to us and teach us the prayers we need for the salvation of our souls!
The bishop knelt down on the ship, and answered back: Your own prayer will reach the Lord, men of God. It is not for me to teach you. Pray for us sinners.  And the hermits turned, walked back across the water to their home, repeating 'Three are ye, three are we, have mercy upon us.'
The Gospel appointed today from St Mark illustrates how human the apostles truly were.  And we should see ourselves in their example in this Gospel.  While they are arguing among themselves about who among them is the greatest, Christ is trying to tell them about His death.  His death, which will be for the salvation of their souls, the redemption of the world, the healing of brokenness: and the apostles were fighting over who is more important.
And that fighting is both the symptom and the disease: a symptom because its only one way in which the apostles arent focusing on their true mission of following Christ alone, and the disease because the arguing about greatness takes them even further from the path Christ has laid out for them.  Like the bishop in Tolstoys story, the apostles are focused on themselves and their own way of understanding, and are missing out on the real opportunity for grace.  The bishop overlooked the holiness of the hermits because he found their prayer to be too simple, and the apostles are distracted by arguing among themselves, and so do not fully appreciate the words Christ is telling them about his own salvific death and glorious resurrection: The Son of Man is going to be delivered into the hands of men. They will kill him, and after three days he will rise.
And so, Christ has to be direct.  He knows what the apostles had been talking about, and so deals with it directly, telling them that true greatness was service, and that to be the first, as they had argued about, was to be the last.  Maybe by then the apostles were able to remember the prediction of His death, and tie in his words of greatness equaling service and see it forecast in His death.  Most likely not, though.  The apostles would continue to be scandalized by Christs prediction of his death, and seemingly caught unawares once the Passion unfolded.  Had they remembered Christs words about the first being last and applied this to the Passion, then maybe they would have seen it as the greatest witness of service.
The key, then, is to focus on Christ.  To focus on His life and His message, to focus on His example.  Instead of arguing about who is the greatest, instead of believing that there is only one right way to pray, instead of believing that enough committee meetings will get us to heaven, focus should be lasered in on Christ.  Christ as the only measure of greatness, of prayer, and of holy life.
Each of us struggles with this, for none of us has got it entirely correct.  None of us is without imperfections and flaws.  Sometimes, though, those flaws can hold us back and sometimes, they can be opportunities for us to look again to Christ and to move back into focus.
A practice developed in medieval Japanese pottery called kintsugi.  When a piece of pottery would crack or break, when a teapot handle would fracture, or a cup get chipped, a master potter would mend the fault.  But, instead of mending it with staples or cement, in kintsugi, the flaws were mended with gold.  Cracks would be filled in with veins of gold running through the vase, teapots would have sparks of gold along the rim where chips had been mended.
In the Christian life, when we admit our own flaws and pray humbly to Christ for the grace to amend our lives and follow him more closely, Christ repairs our flaws with gold.  When we admit our sins, pray for grace to convert and to remember that the first should be last, Christ puts our brokenness back together with gold.
Each of us has running through our souls strings of gold where Christ has knit us back together.  Instead of fighting, judging, arguing about who is the greatest or what is the right way to pray, let us be thankful for the gold that binds us into wholeness, thankful to the Christ who does the binding, and always remembering that Christ must be the center of our lives.  Amen.




In the Name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit.  Amen.

Take, O take him, mighty Leader,
Take again thy servant's soul.
Grave his name, and pour the fragrant
Balm upon the icy stone.
Take him, Earth, for cherishing,
To thy tender breast receive him.
Body of a man I bring thee,
Noble in its ruin.

By the breath of God created.
Christ the prince of all its living.

Take him earth, for cherishing.
In September 1935, Michael Howells, aged nine, contracted polio, and died in London three days later.  His father, the composer Herbert Howells, would be forever changed by his sons unexpected and untimely death, and would continue for the rest of his life to commemorate the date of his sons death. 
Soon after Michaels passing, his father began his period of his greatest work, creating both the largest quantity and quality of his staggeringly impressive opus.  He continued the remembrance of his son, he allowed his work to be influenced by his loss, but his work became a way that he gave thanks for his sons life; Howells compositions sprang from gratitude for the nine years he had with Michael.
28 years after Michaels death, Howells was commissioned to write a new work.  This work was Howells transformation of his grief over Michael and thanksgiving for his life into a piece that would change the world.  Considered a masterpiece, and entitled Take Him, Earth, For Cherishing, this work was not for any mundane use, but was the motet for the memorial service of John Kennedy.  Howells almost thirty year process of remembrance and thanksgiving birthed a work of art that framed the national grief poured out for its slain President.  Howells process followed a threefold opening of remembrance, thanksgiving, and transformation that spanned across decades, across oceans, across to Heaven itself.
In November, we celebrate a litany of holidays and commemorations that entreat us to remember and to give thanks: We open with All Saints, then right on its heels we have All Souls, then Guy Fawkes Day, then election day, Veterans Day, Thanksgiving Day, the Solemnity of Christ the King and the end of the Church Year, and the Feast of St Andrew, the first apostle Christ called to follow Him.  This entire month we are cycling through remembering those who have gone before us, those who have served our nation, those who journeyed here seeking freedom to worship, those who left their nets behind.  We also cycle through giving thanks for the witness of our ancestors, giving thanks for our freedom and democracy that allows us to elect our leaders, gratitude for our nations safety, gratitude for the good earth on which we live and gratitude that while we have elected a President, we remember that Christ is our King.
Its a natural process for us to remember and to give thanks.  Tomorrow, many of us will sit down with our friends and families, eating the same foods using the same recipes weve eaten maybe our entire lives.  Ill be enjoying my mothers strata, an egg casserole that still reminds me of eating at the kids table during Thanksgivings at home in Corning in the 80s.  Some of you may be eating an apple pie baked with your grandmothers recipe.  Giving thanks is tied together with remembering.
But recall Take Him, Earth, for Cherishing.  Recall Herbert Howells and his movement of remembrance and thanksgiving.  His pattern became larger than himself, it became transformative and truly complete, when he shared it with others, when his grief became the frame on which a nation mourned, his cries became an American lament, his tears, our own Lacrimosa.
Our patterns of remembering and thanksgiving this November will also find their fulfillment when we allow Christs grace to transform our rememberance and gratitude into change for others.
This threefold pattern of remembrance, thanksgiving, and transformation should be familiar to al of you, and not just because of this moths holidays.  The Eucharistic prayer unfolds this threefold movement.  We hear the celebrant lead us in the Eucharistic prayer: Do this in remembrance of me.  We all join to proclaim that we remember His death.  We give thanks together for the bread and wine which the earth has provided us, and we offer our sacrifice of praise and thanksgiving.  We declare that we are transformed through this prayer, when we pray that we be sent out into the world in peace,
and  be granted strength and courage
to love and serve
with gladness and singleness of heart.  We remember, we give thanks, we are transformed.
The very word we commonly use to describe this threefold opening in the Sacrament, the word Eucharist, is the from the Greek words eu- and charisma, and together mean great gift, or thanksgiving.  In discussing the Eucharist, St Augustine told his congregation that they were to become what they receive, that they were to pray that they might become Eucharist themselves, become sacrament and grace for others.
This is the transformative aspect of the Sacrament we celebrate tonight.  We remember, we give thanks, and then we pray that we might allow Christs grace to change us, to move us into greater wholeness.  Like Howells, our lives are most complete when we allow Christ to transform our remembrance and thanksgiving into grace for others.
This November, how have we been transformed into grace for others?  We remembered and gave thanks for those who defend our nation, but 40% of homeless men are veterans.  Tomorrow we remember and give thanks for the preservation of our forebears in the wilds of Massachusetts, but 26% of Native Americans live in poverty, double the poverty rate among White Americans.  Are we being transformed into grace for others?
If we remember and give thanks, we must also open our souls to be changed by that.  If we are to be Eucharist to others, then our lives must be centered around people we dont know, people different from us, people who are not yet members here.  We need to open our hearts, our church, and our budget to those outside.  Todays collect gives thanks for the earths fruits, then asks for grace that we might give relief to those who are in need.  That relief is not just food.  Its sharing our money, our space, our lives, our power.  It has less to do with pumpkin pie than with political empowerment.   It has less to do with cranberry sauce then with ensuring all persons are treated equally under the law, given the same human rights.  It has less to do with apple pie than with education, access to health care and decisions about ones own body and property.  It has to do with having a place at the table, whether that is the Thanksgiving table, the Common Council bench, the altar rail, or the voting booth.
Our opportunity to be transformed through Christ will see us as individuals and as a parish move beyond our concept of dispensers of grace, as a temple where those who wander in will receive some trickle down grace through us.  We need to exist for others, not for ourselves.  Our transformation happens when the remembrance and thanksgiving we do in our offices, in our pews, and at the altar then spills out and changes our community. 
Archbishop William Temple wrote The church is the only organization in the world that exists solely for the benefit of its non-members.  For us, that requires a sea change.  It requires us to take our remembrance, our thanksgiving, and change it into something for others.  It means that St Pauls Cathedral is not here for us, its here for those who have never been inside of it.  Our model is Christ Himself, who, in the Eucharist, commands us to remember, to give thanks, and to be transformed. 
Our choices, our budget, our mission must reflect that we are being transformed daily by remembering who we are and what weve been, by giving thanks for one another and for the redemption offered us in Christ, and then being transubstantiated ourselves into the Eucharist that will be broken while still being whole, that will be many though still one, that will be as mundane as bread yet as mystical as redemption, that will grow by changing, and that will gather together so that we may go out to others.



In the Name of the Creator, the Keeper, and the Lover.  Amen.

Its probably the blue that gave it away, but Advent has begun.  This being the First Sunday of Advent, the first Sunday of the new Church Year, I hope all of you got to bed at a reasonable hour last night after ringing in the new church year with champagne, party hats, Auld Lang Syne, and kisses at midnight.
Some of you, though, might be saving all of that for later in the month.
And even if you didnt make merry last night, thats no less reason to be excited about what this morning brings: a new year and a new hope. 
Again, we journey along the path of mankinds salvation, hearing the promise of Jeremiah, that the days are surely coming when the Lord will fulfill the promise he made to Israel.  Again, we journey with the people of Israel as they awaited the Messiah, as they prayed and hoped for their deliverance: from Egypt, from Babylon, from the Greeks, from the Romans.  And again, we are driven along with other pilgrims as salvation history is unfolded during these four weeks of Advent, leading us through wilderness and exile to the Bethlehem of promise.
Last Sunday was the final Sunday in the old church year, and we crowned it with a celebration of Christ the King.  We have a glimpse in todays Gospel of what that Kingdom is, over which Christ is King.  During Advent, we wait for Christs coming, and for the beginning of His reign, and the Gospel we heard tells us what shape the Kingdom will take.
And it looks like something of a scary shape, frankly.  People will faint from fear.  The seas will roar, nations will be distressed.  Yikes.  When I snack on that little piece of chocolate behind the window each day on my Advent calendar, I dont think much about distressed nations as I count down to Christmas.  I planned to go awassailing, not to go afainting from fear.  Somebody messed up the story!
We might ask how it is that Christs kingdom causes such angst, but we might be asking the wrong question, or, at least, asking a question that is not getting to the heart of Christs meaning in this Gospel.  The heart of what Christ is conveying is connection, is relationship, is communion.
The Kingdom that Christ will usher in does not go by unnoticed.  What God is doing creates ripples: we hear that there will be signs in the heavens, in the creation that God fashioned, called good, and sustains.  We hear that there will be signs among the nations of mankind that God established in his own image.  We hear that the seas will rise up, the same seas over which the Holy Spirit hovered at the beginning of the world.  This message of the coming of the Kingdom ties together the actions of God with the world he created and with mankind.
They are tied together: God speaks, and the created world responds.
That interconnectedness and relationship will be told through all of Advent: the story of how God and His people communicated through the prophets, through the Law, and then through a Child.  The Kingdom is not so much about scary stuff happening, but about the communion between God and what God has made.
And we also have more understanding into the Kingdom when we reflect on the reason for the sending of the prophets, the Law, and the Christ Child: out of love.  Gods action in establishing the Kingdom is out of love for us.
We heard in the Gospel also that those who were listening to Jesus, that that generation of his first followers would not pass away before the Kingdom had been established.  There are numerous different ways of understading what that means, but other Gospel passages are a bit clearer.  The Kingdom is not only a future event, but one being unfurled now, being opened up here on earth already.  The Kingdom has already been established, and the earth and all mankind are growing into it.
When we begin to think that our salvation is already at hand, that our redemption is nigh, we gain a different perspective.  Gods works becomes closer to us, the call to live out the Gospel becomes more real and more urgent, and the movement of Christ in our lives is more transparent.
In the Gospel, Christ tells us that the Kingdom will be a place of peace, of justice, of fig trees blossoming in summer.  We begin to realize our role in hastening the Kingdom when the way we look at our world is transformed by that Gospel message.  We will hear the story of the census of Caesar Augustus, of his desire that everyone be counted.  Mary and Joseph will travel to Bethlehem for the census, and will find the town full of travelers with no room for boarding.  Mary, an unmarried young girl, will give birth in a cave, surrounded by livestock.  When we see the Kingdom around us, this is more than a story, but is also an invitation.  It invites us to look around us to the struggling families here in the city of Buffalo, and see in them the Holy Family as they scramble for shelter and safety.  In the Kingdom, all families are the Holy Family, and we who look past the suffering families are those who would not give up their place in the inn, we are the innkeepers who couldnt be bothered to find a little room when we ignore the needs of the families around us.
The kingdom calls us to see all people as family, to see everyone as Christ sees them.  Divisions between the rich and the poor fade, and delineations between the living and the dead disappear.
Recently, James and I traveled to Philadelphia, and of course I dragged him around to the historic churches there.  We went to Christ Church to see the tomb of Wiliam White, the first bishop of Pennsylvania.  I was impressed to be at the burial site of one of the most important leaders in the early American Episcopal Church, and was awed by the experience.  James seemed less impressed with the dead bishop, but he was the one who gave me an even greater lesson.  A we were wandering around, James noticed all of the memorial markers embedded in the church floor, most of which were smoothed over from 300 years of feet, but under which were buried notable members of the parish, within the church itself.  James commented on the old practice of pew rents, that a family, sometimes for multiple generations, would buy or rent a pew from their parish, and would sit in the same place for decades.  James wondered if some of those families had buried their relatives next to their own pews.  Its an amazing thought.  Outside of All Souls Day, we can often forget about the dead who have gone before us, but imagine if every Sunday, you were reminded tha your grandfather had worshipped with you, and that, after death, he worships with you still.  Imagine how the barrier between the living and the dead would fade, how the Kingdom shines through, when you continue to attend church along with those who have already passed. 
Advent gives us the space to stretch back over a lot of history, to reach back through the experiences of all those who waited for Christ, from Adam and Eve up to Simeon and John the Baptist: hundreds of generations who longed for their redemption, or the Kingdom to come.  We should, then, admire and be thankful for the grace to live in a time when the Christ has already been revealed, when the Kingdom has already been founded. 
Our transition to thinking about the Kingdom and our role in it should impact the way we live and the choices we make.  In the 14th century, an English nun experienced visions from Christ in which she heard Christs words about the Kingdom, and about the interconnectedness of life with the divine love.  In one of those visions, Julian of Norwich saw a hazlenut appear in her hand.  She asked God what it was, and he replied that it was the entirety of all creation.  Julian wrote: marveled how it might last, for I thought it might suddenly have fallen to nothing for littleness. And I was answered in my understanding: It lasts and ever shall, for God loves it. And so have all things their beginning by the love of God. In this little thing I saw three properties. The first is that God made it. The second that God loves it. And the third, that God keeps it. But what is this to me? Truly, the Creator, the Keeper, the Lover.
The earth is our Island home a gift given to us by Our God who is Creator, Keeper, and Lover.  Knowing that the Kingdom is already here and that its fulfillment is nigh should drive how we treat the earth.  It was reported this month by the US National Climactic Data Center that 2012 is likely to be the warmest year on record since consistent climactic data began to be collected in the US in 1895.  The famed Northwest Passage above Canada connecting the  North Atlantic and the Pacific through the Arctic Sea is no longer a quixotic hope f explorers, but is a real ship lane as polar ice has melted and opened the Arctic passage for trade.  Scientists of every discipline are of agreement that these changes are due to human activity, to carbon consumption.  God established the Kingdom on this earth that he created, keeps, and loves, and our actions are destroying and poisoning it.  Yet, do we see this as citizens of the Kingdom?  Do we see our own actions as contributing?  Do we carpool or take public transportation because of it?  Do we minimize our consumption, seeking to lessen our impact?  Do we support policies that cause us to deepen our dependence on burning carbon? 
We often pray for the Kingdom to come: during all of Advent, well ask that the Christ be sent to us, and in the Lords prayer, we pray Thy Kingdom come.  We pray for the advancement of the Kingdom and should not be naïve to think that that will require nothing out of us.  It will.  It will require that we change.  That we live as creatures aligned to a creator, as people who are kept by a keeper, as men and women who are loved by a lover.  The Kingdom means that we also shelter and love those who are most in need, that we value and honor those who have gone before us, and that we protect and nurture our earth. 
During these next few weeks, as all Creation journeys toward Bethlehem, we should feel the urgency of the Kingdom, of the call to be changed by what is unfolding.  We are as pregnant as Mary during this Advent, for the Lord has asked us to bear Him into the world, to work with him in furthering the work of the Kingdom, and, with our lives, to bring the Christ into the world which so desperately needs his message of comfort, of love, of strength, and of redemption.



In the Name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit.  Amen.
I really like puppies.  I guess thats true of most people, but when I say that I really like puppies, I mean that I really really like puppies.  I think that there are some of us who are made to live with and to share our lives with dogs.  And this goes beyond the cat people vs dog people distinction: I am and have known others for whom dog ownership is not a hobby, but a completely necessary part of themselves, a part that completes them.
And this shouldnt come as a surprise: humans first domesticated dogs 30,000 years ago.  Weve spent a lot of time, a lot of formative time, living together and growing together.  Its clear how domestication has changed the dog: modern domesticated dogs look and act very differently than wolves, their wild counterpart and origin.  But domestication is a two-way street.  It may be surprising to consider, but humans have been dramatically changed through domestication.  For example, the human digestive system has changed because of the introduction of milk from domesticated cows.  Domestication of plants and other livestock allowed humans to transition from nomadic to permanent settlements, concentrating on diversification of labor, social stability, and national identity.  Domestication of the dog gave humans increased security, improved hunting abilities and scope, and even truffles!
Because of their interaction and growing together, dogs and humans were both changed, and some of us keenly feel the need to have dogs in order to be most completely ourselves: we have a dog-shaped longing, one that only can be filled by a canine relationship.
Domestication is an interesting theme to consider during this time of year, during this part of the Church season.  In Epiphanytide, we recall the ways that God reached out to us, shaping us, calling us to a different way of being human, calling us to be domesticated according to his own life: through the Law, through the prophets, through a special status as the Chosen People, the Hebrew Nation came to know the God who called them into a relationship with him.  They grew to have a Yahweh-shaped longing that only the Lord of Hosts could fill.  And, after the Law, after the prophets, God communicated to the world through an infant, born in Bethlehem, and living silently in Nazareth, forgotten and forgettable: poor, a laborer, unremarkable.
Until the events we heard today.  Until the wedding in Cana.
All of the Epiphany season is about how Christ is manifested, how he is shown forth, Our word Epiphany comes from a Greek word meaning to show forth.  The Epiphany is when the Wise Men find the Christ child in Bethlehem, the Epiphany is when onlookers hear the voice of God as Christ is baptized in the Jordan, the Epiphany is when the apostles see Jesus conversing with Moses and Elijah on Mt. Tabor. All of these are the Epiphany.  All of these are ways that God is showing us the new way in which He comes to us to form relationship, the new way in which we are domesticated into the divine life: through the person of Jesus Christ.
But todays Gospel is a special Epiphany, for it displays the way that God is going to be among us as Christ, and it marks the first miracle that Christ will perform.
In a small town in Galilee, far away from the important commercial and religious centers of the nation, Jesus, his mother, and his friends attend a wedding, likely the wedding of a relative.  His mother, knowing that the wine has run out, asks  Jesus to intervene, asks Him to give an Epiphany.  Through the request of a forgettable, poor, and simple woman, Christs first miracle is wrought.  This Epiphany at Cana teaches that in Christ, God is cleaving to the heartfelt wishes of all: not just the Hebrew nation, not just the priests, not just privileged men, but to all.  There was no less likely requester of a miracle, no person whose name is less likely to be recorded in the annals of history than a woman living in Galilee, and yet, through Gods work in Christ, the name and example of Mary has inspired and strengthened tens of millions for two millennia.  This is the new Epiphany: through Christ, God is present in all people, calling all people to relationship.  And like domestication, this is a change not only in humankind, but in God: no longer would one nation be the sole recipients of his grace and the only ones to hear his voice.  No longer would only men be the ones who would call upon God for miracles.
At Cana, God showed us what we were getting into by being domesticated to him through Christ: in the context of a human celebration, a celebration of love and new beginning, God reached out and manifested Himself.  The Law was given in thunder and terror on Sinai, Moses had to remove his sandals as he heard the voice of God.  At Cana, God descends among us, far from the mountain of thunder, and caters to our simplest desires: a good party, more wine, enjoyment of friends and family.
In the Hebrew Scriptures, God often talked about His love for Israel as that between a groom and a bride, and at a human wedding, God, in Christ, invites everyone into that marriage.  Christ is the new wedding between God and all of humankind, God is the new way that man is domesticated.  As Israel had a Yahweh-shaped longing, after Cana, now all the world would.  And that longing is filled by Christ, by the Christ who manifested himself in caring about the request of his mother, caring about the enjoyment of a young couple on their wedding day.
Cana was not a moment in history that fleetingly passed and is gone; it is an eternal moment with eternal consequences.  It was one of the times, one of the Epiphanies, when we learned to see in Christ our need to be in relationship.  To be in relationship with God as in a marriage, and to be in relationship and aware of others.  Mary saw the needs of the couple as their wine was depleted, and called out to the God of miracles.  At Cana, God showed us what our life in Christ was going to be about: it was going to be about relationships.
And that is what makes the moment of Cana a moment that continues to live on: we discover at Cana that God will be manifest to us through our relationships with others.  Epiphanytide spills over out of these few weeks into the whole year, into the whole of our lives and the lives of all people when we find in relationships with others, the Christ who came as a Bridegroom.  Cana is made permanently part of our psyche and understanding when we see Christ at Cana in our relationships with our spouses, with our coworkers and friends, with the person who cuts us off on the 190.  After Cana, the world has changed, for Christ has stretched out his hand: stretched out his hand to perform a miracle of changing water to wine, and stretched out his hand to perform a greater miracle: inviting all of us into marriage with God.
The essence of Christs message, in the manger, at Cana, and at the Cross, is Gods overweening love for each of us, and the manifestation of that love in our relationships with others.  Christ chose his first miracle to be among humans, at a human celebration, requested by his human mother.  In Gods work of domestication with us through Christ, its clear that both God and humankind are changing, are growing into more intimate relationships with each other.  In Christ, God is most himself when he is with humankind and we are most ourselves when we are with God. 
In the words of one of the Eucharistic prayers, we pray to God that he may put all things into subjection under His Christ.  At the wedding in Cana, in which Christ invited all to join the divine marriage, we accept being domesticated and we accept the subjection of Christ.  This is not a heavy load to carry, for Christ assures us that his yoke is easy, his burden light.  Our domestication, our Epiphany, is nothing less than our growing into Gods love, and God becoming flesh as one of us. 
Christ no longer attends our weddings in person, Christ no longer walks along our lake shores.  But Christ continues to be our guest and the wedding at Cana continues our lives when we find in relationships with other, our own desire to stretch out our hands in love, as Christ did at Cana.  Cana continues even today when we care less about our own comforts and more about those who suffer and need food, safety, and education.   Cana continues today when we celebrate the love of all people for one another, the love children share with their parents, the love that partners share with one another.  Cana continues when we place relationships and others before ourselves.  Cana continues when, in awe and when transfixed with wonder, we confess that our God loved us so much that he allowed Himself to change, allowed Himself to come among us in order to invite us to marriage.  Cana continues when we acknowledge the God-shaped longing in our hearts and the hearts of others, and when we invite God to make his habitation among us once again.






In the Name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Spirit.  Amen.

Oftentimes, surprises are things we've known all along, but have finally experienced in a different way.  Recently, a priest in Chicago wrote about an ordinary day that ended with a surprise.  As he was walking his regular path to and from work, he stopped and observed a memorial statue he had passed hundreds of times but never really looked at.  He wrote about it this week as part of his reflection on Independence Day.

This memorial on Wacker Dr near Michigan Ave shows three men: General George Washington in the center, his left hand clasped with the hand of Haym Salomon, an American born of Polish-Jewish parents, and Washington's right hand is grasping the hand of Robert Morris, an Englishman.

We don't often hear these two names, and that's a shame.  These two men were bankers financed the American Revolution, and with out their contributions and work, the surprise of the American victory may never have been pulled off.  This memorial, however celebrates an even broader contribution and attribute of American history.  Inscribed in the base of the memorial are words from a letter the-President Washington sent to the oldest synagogue in the United States, in Touro, Rhode Island in 1790.  In that letter, President Washington wrote:

The Government of the United States which gives to bigotry no sanction, to persecution no assistance, requires only that those who live under its protection conduct themselves as good citizens, in giving it on all occasions their effectual support.

And, just as Washington fought for freedom, progress, and for a government that would give bigotry no sanction, we find ourselves here, today, sharing in that high calling and as heirs of its promises.

As much as we progress and as much as we continue to be surprised and delighted by the new things we discover around us, I am sure, that nobody here this evening is surprised that we all find ourselves gathered for this occasion.  We all know what Tim and Nicholas are like: we all know how perfect they are for each other, and we all knew that it was only a matter of time before one of them put a ring on it.  None of us is surprised to be here, because we know what Nicholas and Tim already know: rarely are there two people who are better suited, more prepared, and exactly what the other one needs.

But there are other surprises.  At this time last year, we would not have been able to celebrate together here in this church, at the Commons, a sign that new things are being done to support and strengthen the neighborhood for which this church was established.  Only last year did the Episcopal Church issue an authorized service for the marriage of all couples in jurisdictions where it is established in law.  Only last month did we see the federal government catch up with now 13 states in extending equal rights under the law, preserving a government which gives bigotry no sanction. 

An adjective used to describe progress in Buffalo, changes in the Church and movement in federal government might be glacial.  But I, for one, don't care how long it took.  I, for one, am glad to be here to celebrate these surprises, and i am proud this evening to be here at the Commons, proud to be a New Yorker and an American, proud to be here in the Churchs name, proud to be a Buffalonian.

This evening, Nicholas and Tim will be doing two things: entering into a new legal contract and folding themselves into a sacred social context. Nicholas and Tim have already shown their love and commitment over the last several years, and marriage isnt going to change that.  They dont have to get married to show that they mean it when they say I love you.  Its not like marriage is just the next logical step.

Marriage is a gamechanger.  This evening, the relationship that Tim and Nicholas have had together up to this point, that relationship is not going to leave this room.  It is going to be altered.  By the exchange of vows, the giving of rings, the promising of their entire selves, and the binding of their hands, Tim and Nicholas are asking the community gathered here, and asking the grace from the God of surprises to forever bind the two of them together, to make of them a new thing, a thing never before seen: i saw on Facebook that we may be making a Renzarella or an Anzoni or an Azzarella-Renzoni.

And we are here as witnesses to their past love.  We are witnesses to a divine mystery, an act that will surprise and transform Tim and Nicholas, and, if we allow it, to surprise and transform all of us, too.
Their marriage is for their mutual edification and growth, but is also a gift that they give to us and to their community.  The gift of their marriage shows us the total commitment and self-emptying possible when two people are willing to give everything for each other. 

That gives us a responsibility to be there for Nicholas and Tim, not just today at their wedding, but all through their marriage.  We all have the responsibility and singular privilege of helping them learn from their mistakes and from their triumphs, and sharing our own with them.  Whether we are friends, family, or here for the food, we are responsible to laugh with them, to celebrate with them, and to look to them as an example of love, just as Christ is a model of love to us, as St Johns Gospel recorded: that we love one another as totally as Christ has loved us.

Remember, also, on this day of joy, that this is not a path you two walk alone.  You are surrounded by all of us here and those who have gone before us, and we've all promised to celebrate with you in times of joy, and to support you in times of struggle.

And there will be those times of pain and struggle.  In Japanese pottery, there is a practice called kintsugi.  When Japanese porcelain is broken or cracked, instead of throwing it out or discarding it, potters repair the break using a gold lacquer.  In that way, the defects and flaws of the piece are transformed into beauty, rather than hidden.  Instead of imperfections being shameful, they become opportunities to shine.

You come to each other today with cracks, with gaps, with things that youd like to change about yourselves.  In your marriage, if you permit yourselves to be vulnerable and open to one another, each of you will transform the others brokenness into gold.  Moving from independence to interdependence can be rocky, but you will nurture and benefit each other if you permit your love to triumph and to transform the things that hold you back into the things that will be your most shining triumphs.  And from this day, you will undertake this for and with each other.  The surprises that vulnerability will bring you will be as varied and exciting as the surprises youve already had.

Tim and Nicholas, what I can give you, I give you with my whole heart.  I can give the States license, and Gods grace through the Churchs blessing.  But both of those things pale compared to what you give each other.  In your vows, youll give to one another your very lives. 

You, Nicholas and Tim, will forever bind yourselves together, and generate a new and holy creation through your marriage. You will place seals on one anothers hearts, and tie bands to each others souls.  You will give everything to one another, and forever be different men.

Nicholas and Tim, along with those with your presenters and your wedding party, please rise and join me.